Expect the Unexpected!

WOWZERS! What a roller coaster! I feel like the theme for this new year so far is expect the unexpected! So many things have been going on lately. I can't even keep up and it's my life. This past weekend was one of the roughest times I've had in a very long time.. Saturday was the parting of my Dutch friend Hein, who I've just so happen to be BONKERS over right now. I don't know if we'll ever be more then friends because of our situation but I do know, this man is my soul mate! He's like a missing puzzel piece! ADORE him I really do!

So there you go, there's one thing I wasn't expecting and it comes with so much emotion! Then stupid Sunday:( I lost two of my favorite people! I haven't been that ready to talk about them, or how I feel but I'm getting there. So I would like to spend some time to talk about them both. One thing I've noticed is that when people pass away or move or something happens, people that knew them talk about how amazing these people were, and all the good things that were, well I believe in keeping it real, so I'm going to talk about those amazing thing and I'm gonna talk about their pain in my butt qualities too. Because honestly I think for both of them it was the not the greatest qualities of theirs that captured my heart the most! So my boy Mike!

Micheal LaMontagne passed away Sunday afternoon, he died in his sleep, not sure the cause of his death but it was so incredably unexpected. I met Mike when I was 16 years old, everyone called him Pinkey, he hated it lol, so I actually never called him that. He thought people were calling him gay lol, but really it was because he had pink skin and LOVED Ketchup, so everyone teased that's why he was pink lol.. When I was 16 there was alot of changes made in my life, one being that I moved away from Memphis and was living with my grandparents whom gained custody of my and my brother. I came back to Memphis alot during on the weekends and spent quite a bit of time with Mike and our mutual friends. LOTS of partying, and I don't wanna get to personal lol but we had a lot of intimant moments! I lost contact with him a few years later. I'd hear updates about him from a mutual friend. Mike had fallen in love with a girl he then dated for 11 + years and had 3 kids with her. At the end of Novemeber Mike and I reconnected on Facebook.com, it was like we never missed a day.. We were instant besties again. We hung out the same day we talked on facebook for the first time in years. I saw him at least once a week after that. I got to spend Christmas Eve with him and his children. Mike was so horrible at text messaging lol, so sometimes I'd go days without hearing from him, he was a hard working man and a very dedicated dad. Mike and I became very fond of each other but discussed neither one of us were interested in a relationship, but we'd be there for each other.. So we hung out every chance we got and would have long chats on the phone filled with laughter. He had one of the best laughs! A few weeks ago he came over to help me with some house projects, there wasn't anything he didn't know how to do.. One thing he was helping me with was my shower, so I was in the bathroom with him handing him tools, and just chattin, when we were done, he walked out first and then I turned to turn out the light and he said hey stay turned around, close your eyes and back up to me, and lift up your hair. I joked and asked oh great your going to choke me aren't you, he laughed and said shhh stop talking lol.. Then he slipped a necklace around my neck.

I looked in the mirror and was taken back by it's beauty! I hugged him and gave him a big kiss, and said thank you. He then said it made me think of you, beacuse you are so beautiful inside and out! I last saw him almost 2 weeks ago, he texted and said hey, I'm taking you to dinner! I said alright! He had been working so much as of late that there was a few things that I had done for him but hadn't had a chance to give to him yet. So when he came I surprised him with a pillow I made him! It had his favorite on it (skulls)

He grabbed it out of my hands and hugged it tight, and carried it around for a good 15 mins lol, it was cute. I also surprised him with a groupon for a massage, since he had been working so hard. We later went to dinner then I went with him to do a job because he was one call, and then we came back home and laid in bed and just talked, laughed and he told me dirty jokes lol! He really honestly was a good person with a big heart. He was always being supportive and silly. I loved making him laugh and smile.. One thing that impressed me the most about him was one time we were talking and he was telling me some crazy stories about a few women he had bumped into, my first reaction was RUN MIKE RUN, he laughed at me and said I know their lives seem so crazy but I know what it's like to battle life so if I can be a smile for someone just by listening or texting a hello I will.. I really admired him for that.. I miss him terribly! Jordon John (My JoJo

To be incredibly honest I may not be ready for this one! May have to dedicate an entire blog post for him later. This man had my heart, he was my best friend. One thing my father taught me when I was young was that in life there will be things you like and things you don't like about everyone you meet, and sometimes those dislikes will out way the likes, but if you focus on the likes then you'll never hate anyone and love everyone, and you'll have the best memories of people.. Honestly if it wasn't for taking my fathers advice all of my life, I wouldn't be friends with half of the people that I am, Jordon included. When I first met Jordon I remember thinking oh man this guy is really pissed off like all the time lol, he had this look on his face like he could spit fire at any moment. And rumor had it that he wasn't very nice to alot of people.. But as I grew to know him I learned alot about him. One he loved loved loved to talk, and just so happens I love to listen so we bonded instantly! But even after growing close to him and spending lots of time with him, I learned that those things I saw at first were still there (they improved over time lol) but it was just apart of him.. But honestly those less then perfect things led me to understand and adore him even more.. I recently went through our text messages and we were funny friends.. He really got my jokes and we'd tease each other constantly..Here's an example lol (Jordan John-NO Im not going to be doing that until after I get back...I still have to finish out my lease Jennifer Shea Kirkland-oh yeah thats right well i miss ya friend Jordan John- yeah same here Jennifer Shea Kirkland-the chappal misses your pimp walk and god father suits Jordan John-haha whatever...I dont have a pimp walk....Im actually tryinn to get a new suit that is just plain. I dont like all of the pinstripes Jennifer Shea Kirkland-well i think they are studly but agree every man should have variety) We must of had a million conversations and a million more'fake dates', that's what we called em... Anyway what I thought would happen already has, I'm crying bucketts. So I'm going to hold off on finishing this one! But I do want to share more about how I see him and how I feel, and mainly about how he was remarkable! Love you JOJO!!!!!!!