Life has been grand lately.... Filled with wonderful friends new and old.. Realizing that I have some extraordinary people in my life. Trying to get my house together has been fun and a long process but mainly cause I've put it on the back burner lol, but I have a garden and flowers with only one dead plant thus far. I've also had a few wake up calls lately and an abundance of the spirit present in my life. Having a blast every day. Life is good and I'm seeing rainbows and sunshine...
Last night I decided to start reading a book that I have called Everyday greatness by Steven Covey. The first chapter is titled contribution. I was reading this story about a boy who was a pretty uncoordinated kid in high school. He ended up making the track team because the coach was interested in his extremely athletic best friend who refused to join the team. So the boy told the coach that if he let him join the team then he'd talk his friend into following him. They both ended up on the team, their first race the boy was extremely behind the others and he really didn't mind that but he thought to himself I don't mind being behind but only if it's after giving my best and am I giving my best. He knew he wasn't so the coaches stand at the bottom of this hill when they see a boy coming over the top of it and they thought it was their best runner who was about to finish not only first but in record breaking time, it wasn't their best runner though, it was their worst, the uncoordinated boy. Since reading that story I thought alot on if I were doing my best. Over the years I've said many times that I feel like I have hit a brick wall and that I'm trying to climb over it but just can't make it. Lately I've realized that I haven't hit that wall at all I'm still miles away from it. I've put forth enough effort to get by but not enough to get me close to that wall. I haven't been doing my best. I'm not being hard on myself at all, these thoughts and realizations have actually been inspiring and uplifting. I think often we want something different we want something BETTER, but that's all it ends up being is a want and a thought. I am okay with where I am in my life in some regards but in alot I know that I can do better and that I can go further. Like one thing being my weight I think that I have tried everything and that I've done all I can do and it must be meant to be. But after thinking about the wall I thought if I had given it my best my all then I would be at my goal. I know better then anyone that I can do anything when my stubburn butt really wants to.
Ok so another random thought I had a few weeks came about after reading a scripture in Mosiah. An angel had appeared to I think the Nephites and told them that with faith and patience the Lord would deliver them from their bondage. I started thinking about different forms of bondage, theirs physical bondage like being enslaved, their is spiritual bondage that comes from sin, but I think there are more forms of bondage. I think we can put ourselves under bondage. When we think about all the expectations we have of ourselves or how we aren't where we want to be , this puts us under bondage where we are weighed down by something. This lowers our confidence and our the way we view ourselves there fore putting us into bondage. But when we let go and we have PATIENCE, and FAITH we can be set free from that because we know that Heavenly Father is aware of us LITERALLY and that with time his plan will be revealed and it will be greater then we imagined. I don't say this to myself just to mask my insecurities and issues but I say it because I fully believe it I fully believe that our faith and Patience in Heavenly Fathers timing will make us better people. Also it allows us to let go and be able to find joy in the journey. I have great joy and realize I have so much more than I don't have. So this is me holding my head up forgetting about the expectations that I have not met and remembering that I am part of a plan a grand plan, this is me enduring in faith, patience, and giving my very best. If I fail it's not going to be because I didn't do my best...
Okay one last thought that I had. Tuesday we had institute and it's a class about becoming good leaders and realizing our roles we have as leaders. I'm very excited about the class. At the end of the class we were giving an exercise to do. It was listing all of the roles in our lives in which we are called to lead, rather church callings, work, or other roles in our lives. Then link those roles to how we can help others come unto Christ. I haven't completed it yet but it has invited a thought. How in every role we play even the small ones, even the ones outside of the church setting we can be the type of person that leads someone to Christ. I've been on a Mosiah kick lately and read last night about King Benjamin's last address to his people and how when he asked how many people that day made a covenant with the Lord to always remember Christ and lead Christ like lives. And it turned out that the whole multitude had been converted and made a covenant with the Lord. How powerful. How real. His address was filled with spiritual truths that invited the spirit which brought about a change of heart in the people. I'm realizing that it's not an address that we always need to give to help others find Christ, sometimes it's a simple smile. I'm begining to understand that even us little people have big shoes to fill and a big role to play!
Ok the end lol... Sorry for the randomness. I've MISSED BLOGGING!
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