Goodbyes, Selfihsness, soon to come Turkey Comas, and Good People..

Lately so many people I've grown close to end up leaving. It is ok because I know that it is good for them and what they may need, so I'm happy they are getting to do new things and fullfill dreams. But selfishly I hate when people leave me. Since I have pretty much been in the same place for years I'm always the one being left behind never the one leaving. My roommate and friend Danelle left this morning and man am I sad. I only have known her for 3 months but she really was a delight to live with. She was like a sister, she brings the sassyness out of Jennifer! She also received my randomness well, with most they just ignore it instead of appreciating it like it should be appreciated. Sunday I found out another dear friend whom I have known a bit longer then 3 months is moving and then theres my bestie guy friend Daniel who is trying to serve a mission. Which him serving a mission is totally amazing and will be a huge blessing for him so I will never verbalize how much I'll miss him (well besides blogalizing it). He's just the only close guy friend I've had in years, and I adore him to pieces. I think I just have a hang up with leaving because of things I've endured in my life.. But least now I feel and show emotion. Then I just sucked it up and pretended it didn't exsist until it built up and was unleashed through pure unfiltered anger. So thank goodness I just turn into a big sad baby now lol... Nah it's not that bad because the feeling of being happy for that person dominates the sadness. But it does sting. But life goes on you know and I look at it like a huge blessing that I've had an oppurtunity to know some really amazing people in my soon to be 30 years. In the words of Ozzy I'm going through changes... I love that song, even though he is singing about loseing a woman he loves, which I can't really relate to that but when my dad passed I remember listening to this song over and over and singing as loud as I could. My dad was a huge Ozzy fan and took me to 3 Oz fests in my life so we bonded over that weirdo and his wonderfully weird music..
I feel unhappy
I feel so sad
I've lost the best friend
That I ever had
She was my woman
I loved her so
But it's too late now
I've let her go
I'm going through changes
We shared the years
We shared each day
In love together
We found a way
But soon the world
Had its evil way
My heart was blinded
Love went astray
I'm going through changes
It took so long
To realize
And I can still hear
Her last goodbyes
Now all my days
Are filled with tears
Wish I could go back
And change these years
I'm going through changes

So happy changes to everyone and happy THANKSGIVING... Turkey coma here I come!
These are pics of me and Danelleavellie , then me and Daniel Pat!