Wednesday, April 20, 2011

Wake up Calls

So about a month ago I got rear ended on Germantown parkway when I was stopped at a red light. This woman hit me from behind going about 55 mph. I was looking in my rear view and watched it all happen and I remember the awful feeling and the awful sound. My car was OK and I wasn't hurt but since then I have developed a huge problem. I've never been in a wreck before where someone else hit me. I've backed into plenty of cars and various other things but have never been hit or hit anyone head on. So ever since this incident I freak out when I'm driving. I watch my rear view constantly and when anyone gets to close I freak out and scream and have even done more drastic things that can cause a wreck it'self. Like a few days ago I was getting on hwy 40 from Austin Peay hwy and when I went to merge onto the on ramp I looked up and notice the car behind me going really fast then they apparently slammed on their brakes and slid I was screaming even though nothing happened. Then moments after that I was merging onto the 240 and I saw a car heading towards me going fast and I flipped out again and veered over to the other lane to avoid them hitting me not realizing I didn't look before going into the other lane, luckly there wasn't any one in that lane but still. Any way so I started thinking that I'd really lost my mind and have ptsd or something and wondering how it would ever stop. It was at that moment that I thought umm what are you doing Jennifer, you know that this is like everything else in life, something that can be overcome but not by me alone. So I first asked for forgiveness then prayed that the Lord would help me overcome my feeling of being scared.. It's so amazing that when we humble ourselves and just ask the Lord will deliver us from things we naturally don't see an end too or a way out.
Psalms 102: 17 He will regard the aprayer of the destitute, and not despise their prayer.
Alma 33: 5 Yea, O God, and thou wast merciful unto me when I did cry unto thee in my field; when I did cry unto thee in my prayer, and thou didst hear me

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